Hello, again. Just wanted to write a quick post so I could get how I’m feeling out into the universe. I’ve been in conditioning for field hockey for a little over a month now. We have it every morning, and I’m not gonna lie, it’s been pretty intense. However, I haven’t had the most eventful summer so I’ve spent the majority of my time in comfy clothes and not really giving a fuck about what I look like.
After a little bit I started to notice any time I would try to dress in cute clothes I would get super insecure about how the clothes looked on my body. Which is weird because even my favorite pieces were’nt seeming to look how they usually do. I decided to try and style some cute fits tonight after I got inspired and tried on one of my fav pair of pants. The second I started pulling them on I knew they were tight. And when I got them up it took multiple attempts to pull together the button / zip.
So now I’m realizing I wasn’t just being stupid, I’m just literally getting fatter. After working out all the time? Anyways, now I feel fat and insecure and don’t ever want to leave my house until I drop all this fucking weight.
Sorry for this annoying post. Just had to express my teenage angst.
-margo